Break Up

This poem is a conversation. My friend Kayla and I wrote it together. Writing and performing it was an interesting experience, even a fun one. Enjoy.

This is the once innocent girl

Who destroyed her whole world

Because of a simple but devastating choice

To ignore the warning from that small voice

In the back of her mind that told her

It would someday hurt and control her.

She didn't listen.

This isn't what I envisioned!

This life with you where I'm expect to cower down in submission? 

I have to leave; I've already made the decision.

Don't you understand that I own you now?

You can't leave, you're not allowed!

You used to act proud but I'm the one that put you on that cloud

That cloud now casts the darkest shadow,

And its acid rains have caused me sorrow

You've taken and destroyed everything I had

They warned me not to trust you, told me you were bad.

I was there when those same friends turned their backs on you.

Don't lie either, you know it's true

I was all you had to turn to

I made that decision, but it was a mistake

I realize that now and know what's at stake

My friends, family; my entire life's falling apart

And to know that I let you cause that breaks my heart

When I'm stressed, I feel yout apping on my shoulder

But I won't go back, back to the old her

Back to my old ways, back to those wasted days

You no longer have control.

Now I've found my way back,

Back to Him, who completes me where I lack.

Are you stupid? God isn't any higher

Than the highs I gave you that you used to admire

Liar!

I'm ashamed those events even transpired

You could never get me high enough to escape the eternal fire.

So I'm done, we're finished, my love for you has been replaced

With the love of God and his mercy and grace

But I thought we had something special?

Don't let your mind wander and your thoughts wrestle

You know I was there for you when you were down

When those supposed friends of yours were nowhere to be found

I brought you up when you were sad,

Honestly, don't you miss what we had?

No! What we had was nothing but bad

You gave me so much belief that you were my only relief

And I can't let myself rely on you anymore

You may have won a few battles, but I won the war

That's not the person I wanted to be, 

That's not the girl in the mirror I wanted to see!

You were there for me? No! You were not!

You hid my pain beneath the rot

And now I cannot, cannot be your slave, cannot be your toy

I stole all your precious joy

Joy is now all I seek

Seek happiness away from me, all you are is weak

In my weakness, God's strength is make perfect

Perfect? Turn away from me you'll be nothing but a reject

How could you steal the joy that I never had? My weakness was turning to you when things got bad

Perfection is the reflection of God within me

You're the reason my friends have rejected,

You're just not what I expected!

You've imprisoned me for far too long

I now know that you're nothing but wrong 

I will not believe your lies because Christ has heard my cries

Through Him I have the strength to fight

Destroy your darkness with my own light

Your poison no longer affects me!

Your hold is now beneath me!

So this is it! We're over! I don't need you to be someone,

To be good enough. Getting away from you may be hard, the path is rough.

But enough is enough! I've called your bluff.

This conversation is done.

My fight has been won.

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer. Psalm 19:14

-Danny